B1ueWo1f

Hi all,


I wanted to let you know that the majority of my gallery is going to disappear. Especially my poetry. If you have any particular art/poetry piece you really like and would like to keep (NOT COPY), make sure you save it to your harddrive within the next week. (Although I do have all my artwork/poetry on my own harddrive, I probably won't send anything to anyone). I am increasingly scared people are stealing or plan to steal my works.

I will still write my sporadic journals and possibly put up little bits of photography once I figure out how to watermark correctly.

Thank you for understanding.


All my love,
Blue

Seems I'm rather shabby with keeping up journals. And I do believe I was the person who used to get onto my friends in High School when they abandoned their dA sites. Oh, booooo on me for being so hypocritical now.


In my last journal, I noted how Miserable I was that I didn't get into SCAD. Bummer, really. But I am glad now that I didn't. I am currently enrolled at Wake Technical Community College. I have class Mondays/Wednesday. Drawing 1, Sociology of the Family, English: Expository Writing, and Interpersonal Communication. I go in at 10am and leave at 6:15pm. I love this schedule! It gives me Thurs, Fri, Sat, and Sun to do all my homework for the coming week. I am trying to consolidate my homework days to Thur and Fri, so that I have plenty of ME time afterward. I am LEARNING. Finally, I am thirsting for knowledge. It's not just school anymore, its my new way of life, and I LIKE it. (In a year or two, I do plan on reapplying to SCAD. I am still interested in Photography and Interactive Game Design. I am taking Comm classes because they are local and CHEAP. That way I can get my core classes out of the way for..CHEAP )


I have discovered the singer, Eddie Vedder. I am in love with his music. I listen to the tracks I have as much as  possible because I am either dancing in my room or just bobbin' my head while I sit at my computer.

I am also, of Aug 16th, no longer working at the Animal clinic. I can tell you how little stress I have now. I nearly have...none! I am so much more happy because I'm not having to deal with that dreadful place anymore. Though I am going to need to get a summer job next year, but with the experience I have, I'm sure it won't be difficult to fill a job at a museum, grocery store, or whatever else.


Will, my boyfriend and I are still together. This October will be our 5th year! -Throws confetti- I didn't know I could be so in love with someone this long (I mean when we first got together). I've always wanted to be married, but before I met Will I don't think I really understood how marriage and love and companionship worked. Though, I am MORE amazed that he has stayed with me for so long. I complain a lot and I get insecure about my body. I pick at him for not doing his laundry or cooking for me. I always want to go on walks or eat Chinese food. And yet, he's dealt with these things and MORE, and he still loves me to death! If he sees this journal, I am really saying "Thank you" right now.

I ate pizza last night. Definitely not the best, but I did have a coupon for it and it is close to my apartment. (OH YEAH, I moved out of my parents house the day before school started. I am so happy o_o No mother breathing down my neck...Thank God for independence. Don't get me wrong, I loooove my parents and I enjoy going to visit them, but living with them has always been unbearable.They are so...crazy...and sometimes I really wonder how the heck they are still together and still love each other so much...Cuz a lot of times it doesn't seem that way.)


Have you seen "How To Train Your Dragon" yet? If you haven't, GO SEE IT. I saw it 3 times in theatres and am waiting for it to get to DVD (will happen in Oct).


I have lot of other things to say, but MAYBE I'll write them in another journal soon. >_> That's a MAYBE, don't get your hopes up.


THOUGH, I am posting some of my more "recent" art and poetry. So if you liked my stuff before, go look at it and tell me what you think. Or don't tell me, whatever way you want to show your Like or Dislike ISM of it. LOL


All my love,
Blue

I wanted to let you all know that I was not accepted into the Savannah School of Art and Design.
I just found out today.
I am completely torn up about this and have been crying for two hours.

I am not asking for sympathy, but in the case that you would like to write me a note, please email GK.COLLINS@HOTMAIL.COM
Tell me in the note who you are, so I can thank you properly.

I will not see comments on this journal as I hardly log on to DA.





Thank you for being there for me.

Thank you reading and hopefully this gives you more of a chance to pick and choose what parts of my life you are interested in knowing things about. :3 I stole the format from ~Wolf-Midnight-Dancer

The Busy Section:

Work at Mayfair Animal Hospital is the usual crummy, depressing place. But as I've seen many people come in and leave the place, and yet still hold my job for a year and a half, I'm proud of myself. Hold on lemme count the people we gained and lost...: Eric/Emily/Kristin/Ashleigh/(awesome friend, but had to leave due to personal issues)/T'sha/Jamie/Dr. Freels/Dr. DeSilvia/Melissa(is leaving soon)/Julie(is leaving soon)/Kelsey(hardly works since she's in college now)/Allison/Mike.....................Yeah I think that's it.

On another note, I'm reading "The Writing Life" by Annie Dillard. Frackin' awesome book. I've realized that as all writers do not think the same thing, they FEEL the same thing. As I read this book, I know that everything she says is everything I've ever tried to express about writing. And every writer who comes to the point where they read something and everything the author writes is also everything they've ever tried to express about writing can all write it in their own style. It's magnificent!

Also, just finished reading "All The Colors Of Darkness" by Lloyd Biggle, Jr. Very good book. I've never really been into mystery books because the irritate the frack out of me. But this one was a sci-fi mystery. I rather enjoyed it!


Halloween and Party and Too Old to Still Be TrickORTreating section:

This year I'm dressing up as Jessica Rabbit from Who Framed Roger Rabbit. It's going to super exciting. The old people in my neighborhood that don't have Alzheimer yet should know who I am since it's an old movie. Hopefully they wont think I'm dressing up as some random burlesque lady. W01fDem0n and I are planning on getting quite a few people together to go Trick or Treating...We know we are way too old to still be doing this BUT.....It happens right? WE GOTTA HAVE OUR CANDY, RIGHT? RIGHT?!

And then we'll be watching 'Army of Darkness'. Lol

All I need to do for my costume is buy the wig -_- wigs..... and fix the middle breasticus part of my dress. Its too wide. T_T

I'll make sure this time when I get photos to put them up.


Photography and School of Art and Design Section:

I have all my required and optional material in to SCAD. I'm just waiting on the letter. Pray they give me super points on my portfolio for scholarship consideration and that they accept me!

Other photography..like Ireland and Morocco photos...I'm trying to get up..honestly. T___T ON FACEBOOK.
If you dont have FB, you should still be able to see them. Once I have some up, I'll post a link. >_____>


Neurology Section:

My epileptic brain has been doing fabulous lately. I've been on Lamictal(Lamotrigne is the generic) for uhm 2 months now?
Anyway, I've been stable, no more seizures. A few slight hallucinations but I've always had that really just ended up noticing it more since the other drugs I was on decreased the number of them that I had.  

At the end of this month, I'll be going in for a neurology appointment with a new doctor. Dr. Perkins to be exact. She's a LADEH. :] Hopefully I'll like her more than the deuce bag at Duke Hospital. I still adore my pediatric neurologist though. T__T I told him if I don't find a new neurologist(already against my will) that I like, I'm staying as his patient. Damnit.


Other Doctor Visits Section:

I am not planning on having any other ones. But for the record, I can't eat hardly any sugars now. Got to keep it below 10g a sugar a day, not including fructose and vegetable sugars. I would love to tell you why, but I'm afraid some people wouldn't want to know. If you ARE curious about it, just send me a note...Or better yet and EMAIL! gk.collins@hotmail.com
I check my email more than dA if you haven't noticed.

"Any Thing Exciting?" Section:

If you were wondering...Will Wolf0fMibu and I are still dating, going on our fourth year this month. We plan to get married in four years (oh the wait .__.) when I'm finished with school. I love him and I will wait till the ends of the earth if I had to to be with him and love him as a wife.

MMORPGs! WHAT! WHICH ONES! WHEN! Section:

Fiesta : fiesta.outspark.com/?src=NBM&k… - I've been playing this since September 2007. I don't play as much as I used to, but I still go back to it occasionally. Free to play.
Kuto is my main character, lvl 66, Warrior. And oh how I love her. Server Teva.
(Other characters that I love... Chobe_Greenwood, lvl 27, Hawk Archer. Server Teva. ; Verin, lvl 32, High Cleric. Server Teva)

Sword of the New World : www.gamersfirst.com/swordofthe… - I've been playing this for a few weeks now. Will introduced it to me. It's a super neat game. Unlike any other MMO I've ever played. And the graphics are outstandingly beautiful. Its free to play.
Family name: Erasu; Main team: Felicia, Alakam, and Relena. Server Ophesia.

RF Online - Havent played this in some time. I plan on reloading it after I get more space on my computer. Only character is Feln. She's like lvl 17 or something. I'll post the link to the site later. Free to play.

Guild Wars : www.guildwars.com - Also havent played this in some time. I needed space on my computer. But I love the game to death. Buy the game in the store, but free to play.
Main character is CharmOfTime, Ritualist, Almost finished the game

World of Warcraft : www.worldofwarcraft.com - I don't play this game non-stop. I play a month here a month there. I have a budget to uphold and so I play it on occasion. Its a beautiful game, and I love the feel of it. To me it's not addicting because I have a whole big life to work and deal with. I might go bonkers over a game for a week or two, but I never get permanently addicted to something. My main character is Wingchant. She's a Night Elf Priestess, lvl 30. Server Sisters of Elune. Don't get me wrong though, I adore the horde. Especially the Trolls and Tauren. Buy the game in stores, monthly subscription. Regular game: World of Warcraft. Expansion pack of WoW: Burning Crusade and Wrath of the Lich King.

Burning Crusade introduced two new races: Blood Elves for the Horde, and Dreanei for the Alliance, among other things. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/World_of…
Wrath of the Lich Kind introduced the Death Knight, among other things. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/World_of…




But that's all for now, here's a cupcake :]

Yours truely,
B1ue <3

Have To Hold Up My End Of The Bargain.
I'll explain in a moment.


This weekend is Animazement. So I've been working on my weapons and that's taken a big chunk of my time.

Two of my friends and I are trying to move out by July.
I'm trying to get another job. I'm considering selling my car and buying a moped. I've been bumming rides off my parents/biking to work and its getting irritating. With a moped, not only will I have a little more distance from a potential job but I'll also still have the "I look like an idiot" idea that I have with my bike and "I'm an epileptic, so if I have a seizure, I'll probably only hurt myself and no one else.." WOOOO!

Today I went to a second opinion appointment at the Duke Neuroscience place... The doctor decided that moving me off Topomax was the wisest course of action and that Lamictal was probably my ideal drug. It'd take 6 weeks to work me onto Lamictal but if I was willing to do it then that's that. I said OKAY. Topomax hasn't been making me feel so great. Memory loss plus mood swings, and numbness in my hands, feet, and lips is not too awesome as well as weight loss out the HIZZLE. I can go a whole day without eating because I simply do not think about it.
(This year Ive had two seizures already. Jan,4th and March 12th. I was already on a drug called Trileptal for about 4 weeks this year. It caused: weight gain, severe depression, memory loss(amnesia), difficulty in mental processing, shoulder/back pain, and other personal issues.)


I'm completing my weapons today. That's my goal. It's going to happen. Spray paint and all. Today's my only day off this week from work that doesnt include the convention days.

So, MY END OF THE BARGAIN--
Morocco and Ireland Photos- I've started editing them and adding borders and my copyright.

Sorry again for the wait.

With love,
Blue